He never felt like he wasted his time trying to convince her to love him. After all, he had spent his life with someone he loved while she had wasted her time with someone she didn’t love
His mother had told him that there was nothing such as ‘true love’, rather it was infatuation. “John, What makes a marriage is not true love, it is a conscious choice to spend the rest of your life with another person for companionship.” she always said.
When he set his eyes on her, he was dumbstruck, his knees were weak and his mouth dry. He did not understand what was happening. Sure, he would know if it was infatuation as he had experienced that plenty of times before.
She was the loveliest thing he had come close to. He would break out in a sweat anytime he would try to approach her. It was love at first sight for him.
She knew the kind of power she had over men. It was her gift. Her family was poor and she knew what she had to do. She had someone who she loved dearly but deep down she knew she could not afford falling in love with a poor man. Her beauty was her saving grace. She had planned that she would save it for the highest bidder and secure a comfortable life for her family and herself.
She had met this man, John, he seemed kind of odd. Very shy and humble, she liked that. She found out that he was the sole heir of one of the largest oil companies in the country. She welcomed the idea of getting married to this man. If she did, she would never have to worry about skipping a meal or selling fruits in the market.
John had asked around about this beautiful girl. She had a good reputation too. ” Good luck with Amani, that one is like a diamond…before you get her….(soft chuckle)” his friend Henry joked.
John decided that if it meant walking to the end of the world to get her, he would.
Truth to his word, he did. They got married and it was the happiest day of his life. His heart was so full of joy that he thought he would combust. she was happy, a different kind of happy. She would see her siblings finish school and well taken care off. She would buy her mom a car and a house as repayment for all her hard work. Amani was at peace knowing that her children would never have to endure what she did.
She knew what love felt like, but she would rather have safety and comfort.
In the next few years, they got three beautiful children. He found out eventually that she never loved him. He accepted it and made it his life goal to one day make her fall in love with him. He saw how she would close her eyes when they were making love, he heard her call out the name of the man she loved in her sleep. He never confronted her, he just hoped that one day, she would love him back.
she never did !!
Even after twenty years, he still tried. He went to bed one night and confessed that he knew but he was OK that she did not love him. He told her that he had learned throughout the years that giving love never guaranteed getting it back. He never felt like he wasted his time trying to convince her to love him. After all, he had spent his life with someone he loved while she had wasted her time with someone she didn’t love.
He went to sleep and never woke up.
She wept, she never realized how much she loved this man until he was gone. She had been busy wondering how her life would be if she had married the love of her life. She had single handedly broken the man who had truly loved her for who she was.